I came from a lapsed Catholic background. When I was a young married woman with a 4 year old son, two women knocked at my door—these were Jehovah’s Witnesses and they appeared to have all the answers to life. They told me Jesus came again in 1914, although his presence was invisible, it was “evident” by world conditions. At that time, I had stared reading the Bible and had questions. Also, my mum was seriously disabled and getting worse, I think I desperately wanted to believe these women. So a Bible study was started although my husband and family hated the religion and were concerned for me. This led me to 37 uncomfortable years in the Jehovah’s Witness cult.
I was a very active witness, spending hours every month in the door to door ministry. The thing was, no matter what I did or how much I prayed, something felt wrong, but for years I ignored my gut instinct.
It wasn’t until February 2014 that things changed. I was getting ready to do extra ministry in that month and an extraordinary thing happened. I read this scripture in 1 John 4:18, which says: There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love (NIV). This verse seemed to have such a profound effect on me I couldn’t stop mentioning it. In fact, the more I thought about it the better I felt. I was in my dining room and it was as if the Lord broke every chain of the JWs.
I was miraculously given knowledge of who God is. I knew at once I was in a cult. I knew who I was in Christ and I never felt so wonderful, so free and fearless. I was adopted into the family of God. I wrote a letter to the elders to disassociate from the cult. Now friends who I have known for over forty years in that cult, who I would have given my life for, crossed the road and shunned me.
Within weeks I was lead to a little Free Evangelical church. I feel like I am on eagles wings. My husband also has been born again.
We had a Bible exhibition for schools last week; we spoke to nearly 800 children and teachers we taught from Genesis to Revelation.
I did not understand why God left me in a cult, but I have learnt from anguish comes strength and passion, from suffering comes compassion. God will come to the broken, not to the proud or arrogant.
God taught me I had a false gospel and a false Jesus. The true gospel is 1 Corinthians 15:3, Jesus died was buried for three days then rose from the dead. Paul says if you preach any other gospel you are accursed Galatians 1:8.
From my experience, I am helping and supporting others to break free from the cults especially in the JW’s. We are helping those who have been suicidal when trying to leave as they know they will lose their family still in. I feel God has given me discernment as a gift and put a burden on my heart for the lost.
The Lord is close to the broken hearted who are crushed in spirit Psalms 34:18.